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Shes pretty great in Ozark. Cant wait for S3. Free download i still believe in you vince gill. Download free i still believe meme. Download free i still believe song. Omg I cried watching this. Is the whole movie telling the story in one day ? She seems to wear the same clothes. Story seems super interesting. My Story (Male 17) January 17th, 2020 marks 90 Days of NoFap/No PMO. October 19th, 2019 was the last day I relapsed. I swore to myself that I would never relapse again. Im surprised Ive made it this far. My previous record was 14 days; these 90 days make 14 days look like nothing. I created this account as soon as I hit Day 30 –November 18th, 2019 – with the sole purpose of documenting my journey and struggles. Day 60 was on December 18th, 2019. I started masturbating at the age of 11; I was in Grade 7. It quickly developed into a problem. I could not continue my day if I didnt masturbate. I started with childish things Google Images, Instagram, etc. I didnt delve into porn until I was toward the end of Grade 8. It was downhill from there. I started watching vanilla sex; at first, it was disgusting. Eventually, I convinced myself what I was doing was normal. This continued till grade 9. Then one day, while spending hours and hours searching through some websites, I found anal pornography. Ill spare you all the details, but for years I grew accustomed to that particular type of pornography. What would I do when I was bored? Open my computer and spend hours aimlessly searching for videos, just looking for the next “best” thing. I created this idea of what “sex” was in my head. I remember spending hours sometimes only in my room, door locked, headphones plugged in, and just watching that filth. I had convinced myself that what I was doing was normal. I created so many different accounts on websites – sites with only anal pornography. I created accounts on Reddit and Instagram for the sole purpose of saving, uploading, and sharing videos and photos. Fast forward to grades 10 and 11, and this addiction spiraled out of control. It had become even worse. Id come home from school, and the first thing Id do was open my phone – where I had hundreds of videos saved – and being watching and masturbating. I remember on multiple occasions where if I werent getting aroused by one video, Id open multiple videos on two monitors, and Id begin masturbating to that filth. It should be said that throughout the years I tried on and off to stop my addiction, but I had convinced myself that what I was doing was normal (It was also around this time I began to suffer from PIED, but as I continued to find the next “best thing” which sort of delayed the effects of the PIED. Then around May 2019, I made the abrupt decision to stop. I did no planning, no research about NoFap, I just woke up, and something clicked in me (Mainly since I had two months of exams coming up. I opened my phone and hesitantly deleted several apps that were filled with pornography. I opened Reddit, and Instagram deleted my throwaway accounts. Then plugged in my hard disk into my computer and removed hundreds of GB of anal pornography. I moved to the downloads folder and cleared everything. Dropbox, Google Drive, all cleared. Just writing about this now disgusts me. The first week was easy; I was preoccupied with studying for my exams. Then the stress kicked in. I relapsed on my 14th day. I felt like trash. I was demotivated, tired, and stressed. But given this, I put one foot in front of the other and started again. It was around this time that I discovered NoFap. I began watching videos of other peoples experiences and tips. I had yet to create a Reddit account to join r/NoFap. Like many of you suffering from a porn and masturbation addiction, I relapsed a countless number of times. It got to the point where I went on a “relapse streak” for almost two weeks (During this period, I reinstalled all my previously deleted apps and reactivated all my accounts. Why might you be asking? My reasoning was: What if I missed out on my favorite anal pornography content? What if my favorite anal pornography content creator was producing new clips and scenes? What if I miss on a actresss scenes. I still did not give up, I started NoFap again. I deleted all those filthy applications, yet again. Fast forward early September. Im feeling great, motivated, and productive. I was still a little stressed out because I had an exam next month. I was sitting at my desk studying, with my laptop and books in front of me. Some old scenes played back in my head, and without hesitation, I launched a new tab on my laptop, pushed all my books aside, and began watching and masturbating. When I relapsed, it was unbelievable; it was euphoric. I was in a dream-like state. Then I realized what I had done, and an overwhelming feeling of guilt and shame flooded my body. I relapsed, again, on my 14th day, all for what? A few seconds of meaningless “pleasure”? Life continues, and I relapsed again on October 19th, 2019. After a 7-day streak. I swore to myself, “that was the last goddamn time Id ever relapse. ” Im happy to report that was the last time I ever relapsed, and here I am, writing my success story. It was a long and challenging journey. I suffered from flashbacks of old scenes I used to spend hours watching. I was demotivated, sluggish, and just unproductive. My mood was continually fluctuating. Some days Id be the nicest guy on the planet and others I was the devil, fueled by anger. There is this once specific time Ill never forget. I was sitting in class taking notes, and out of nowhere, I received this massive headache from a flashback. But I persisted. During this period, I did “edge” for about 2 weeks, but I have since then stopped. Benefits: More Motivation: I am very motivated almost every day. The motivation does take time to kick in, and it depends on the individual. Ive seen people do one week of NoFap and feel a surge of motivation. While others, myself included, take a lot more time. For me, I experienced substantial motivation surges at every milestone (20 Days, 30 Days, 60 Days, and 90 Days. I began to feel consistently motivated after Day 60. More Productive: This relates to the previous point: the more motivated you are, therefore, the more productive youll be. Ive started reading books a lot more, which Ill talk about later on. More Confident: I can maintain eye contact with other people much longer. Ive got a firmer handshake and a more deep-seated, clearer voice. Ive made myself more approachable. Happiness: I am a much happier person. I used to stay at home and avoid all social contact, which, as a result, destroyed my social life. I now enjoy the little things in life like walks in the park – which might sound stupid. Going to the gym and hanging out with friends, simple things are much more enjoyable. Increased Concentration: I more able to concentrate on a specific task while studying, which helps me get done with things more quickly. Increased Sensitivity: Yeah, you read this correctly. As a result of my continued pornography and masturbation abuse, I, like many of you, suffer from PIED. The science is complicated, but essentially you desensitize your penis as a result of friction and damage blood vessels and nerves. But for young people reading this, there is hope. Ive noticed recently that Ive started experiencing “partial erections” (40% 70% Hardness) and an increase in sensitivity in my penis. Ive also noticed that I can maintain these “partial erections” for long periods. It should be noted that I am a virgin. Girth: This could be my brain playing tricks on me, but as mentioned in the previous point, Ive started experiencing “partial erections. ” When and if I do experience them, Ive come to notice that my penis girth has seemingly increased not by a substantial amount, but large enough to be noticed by me. Again, this could be because my brain is playing tricks on me because the last time I experience a “full erection” was on October 19th, 2019, my last relapse. Seeing this motivates me even more. Muscle Growth: Ive fixed my diet and have been going to the gym regularly. I am seeing significant muscle growth and fat loss. Clearer Skin: My face used to be covered in acne but has cleared up ever since I started NoFap. I do not believe NoFap is not responsible for clearing my acne, but it helped alongside a clean diet, drinking lots of water, and the daily use of face wash. Tips: Identify what causes you to relapse and remove it from your life: For me, it was my phone and computer. All it would take was to get bored and to open a private window and start searching for my “favorite” porn. Or I would connect my hard disk and start watching videos. Id even open Instagram/Reddit and have a selection of videos that I saved ready for viewing. I call this the “trigger. ” So, I insist that you identify what causes your “trigger” – whether its Facebook, Reddit, and or Instagram – and remove it from your device(s. If your “trigger” is sitting alone in your room while working/studying, then move your items to the living room or dining room. Be prepared to delete all your accounts: PornHub, Xvideos, XHamster, throwaway Instagram and Reddit accounts, you know them all. Delete every single one. If youre committed to this cause and to healing your life, I urge you to delete them ASAP. Dealing with pornographic flashbacks: I suffered tremendously with this. The flashbacks lasted almost 2-3 weeks. It was the only thing on my mind. Honestly, I found that whenever confronted with these, start doing push-ups to failure. It may not completely clear your mind, but I found that it does help. Alternatively, I recommend walking outside whenever the thought of a flashback appears in your head or move to a different room in your house. Get a Calendar: A simple Google Search for January 2020 Calendar (or any of the coming months) will yield many results. Download one and start marking the days. Remember, make the days count, do not count the days! Set realistic goals: Its good to enter NoFap with a huge goal. But start by setting a realistic, achievable goal for yourself. I recommend starting with 14 Days. Once you reach it, youll feel unstoppable. As the days continue, adjust your goals as necessary. Remember that these goals shouldnt be isolated to only NoFap, they should extend to other aspects of your life like working out, starting a new hobby, etc. Get busy doing something you enjoy: For me, I found that reading is a new hobby of mine. Ive started reading a lot more. I recently just finished Cal Newports Digital Minimalism: Choosing a Focused Life in a Noisy World. As soon as I finished that book, I picked up another one: How to Win Friends & Influence People by Dale Carnegie. Find what you love and stick to it. Try going to the gym this weekend, try swimming, jogging, or start painting. Fix your diet: I cannot stress how important this is. By fixing your diet, youll help yourself in the short and long term. Youll feel energized, happy, and motivated – this varies based on the individual. Stay Hydrated: Again, I cannot stress how important this is. If you want to have a clear mind and want to stay focused, drink water, lots of it. I went from drinking less than 500 ml (17 fl. oz) to drinking more than 1. 5 liters (51 fl. oz) of water a day. And let me tell you it really helps. Youll probably be going to the bathroom a lot more than usual, but youll get over it. Spend some time alone: This may seem to contradict one of my previous points, but in Cal Newports book, he emphasizes the importance of spending some time in solitude, free of input from any other mind. I recommend going out for a late-night walk, alone, for 30-45 minutes every weekend. Youll find that your mind becomes “stronger, ” and your willpower will increase 10-fold. Dealing with PIED and Flatline: I am personally still experiencing the effects of PEID, Ive only recently started experiencing “partial erections. ” This, I believe, is the effects of PEID slowly beginning to wear off. Regarding the flatline I cant think of any tips thatll be beneficial. The flatline is a normal process and you should be ready to experience it. It absolutely sucks but think of the end goal. What are you working towards? A better life. Just stay strong and keep persevering. NoFap Urges Graph: I created an excel spreadsheet designed to monitor my Urges throughout my NoFap Journey – linked below. In the X-Axis, you have Time in Days, and the Y-Axis you have Strength of the urges, where 10 is the strongest urge, and 0 is no urges at all. I've also linked a scatter plot with a line of best fit more clearly showing the decrease in urges. There was some misunderstanding regarding the Y-Axis in my last post, so Id like to make it clear. I classified “Urges” as – An urge to return to masturbating and watching pornography. Not a sexual urge like seeing an attractive lady and immediately wanting to be with her, that on the other hand, is normal. Line Graph Scatter-plot Gentlemen, and lady, I want to conclude this by saying you can do this: You will do this. If youre dedicated to changing your life for the better, then youll avoid relapsing in all situations. It is possible. Repeat after me: I will optimize my life. I will change it. I will change for the better. “ Youd be surprised what you can live without ” – Dr. Gregory House -A Edit: Forgot to add Cold Showers, Making your bed every morning and Keeping the environment around you clean: Cold Showers: Ive been taking cold showers every day for the past 44 days. The showers are beneficial when it comes to eliminating those urges. Ive also noticed a lot of health benefits, which are but are not limited to, significantly reduced urges and flashbacks, increased motivation; I can maintain eye contact with people for much more extended periods. Ive got a firmer handshake. The small things in life are more pleasurable: like playing sports with friends or going out for a walk. Making your bed every morning: This may seem like a small one, but it does help. Try making your bed every morning, and youll feel happier. When you come home from school or work, youll find a welcoming, comfortable bed waiting for you. Youre productive! Keeping the environment around you clean: My father once told me: “ The environment you work in reflects whats going on in your brain. If you have a clean room, youll have a clear mind. Vice versa. ” And to some extent he was right. For years Id barely keep my room tidy. I believe that lack of cleanliness lead to me relapsing repeatedly. Every time Id clean it, it would fall apart the next day. Everything was disorganized, I would never find anything whenever I needed it. Until recently, I cleaned my room, organized my clothes, and cleaned my desk. Life has been great. Im more focused and productive. Whenever I need something, I can find it with ease. Additionally, I still have social anxiety (from years of seclusion) and am terrible when it comes to talking to specifically opposite sex. But I believe that the book Im currently reading, How to Win Friends and Influence People, will help.
I still believe my lovely ccter,soon natoa hii cover nipe ruhusa plz. Jaxona explains what the hell is going on. The rest of the series can be found here. Jaxona shifted nervously in her globe. Jon was supposed to be here already. Her bot was hidden in the shadows under a pedestrian bridge leading to a small park near the starport. The park, lovely during the day, wasnt especially the best place to be after dark. This whole neighborhood wasnt. She suddenly thrashed in shock at the realization that she had a thirteen millimeter Terran revolver in her second cargo compartment. When did she get a weapon and why was it Terran? Her eyes widened as detailed images of exactly what that monster could do especially when firing the military grade projectiles that were currently loaded flashed across her mind. When did she get it… and where? How long had she been carrying it? No, she didnt always carry one! She twitched as she wondered what else she had done without realizing it. She swam around unhappily. She was supposed to be just an adventuring student and disappointment to her parents. She should be at home, asleep, or at the diner pretending to cram for an exam that really wasnt that hard when she really just wanted to hang out with her fun xeno friends. She should not be lurking under a bridge in the dead of night with what was basically an anti-tank pistol (that she suddenly knew exactly how to use) hidden inside her bot. This wasnt fun anymore and her “gut” was telling her that it was about to get a lot less fun. Jon wouldnt be doing this just to say hi. To borrow a Terran phrase, shit was about to get real. Jaxona sighed and wiggled to loosen her tightening muscles. Worry about that later. Gotta get my game face on. She relaxed and her senses sharpened. She was aware of everything going on around her, the two humans making a drug deal, the pair of male Sarong slipping into the shadows for a career and quite possibly life threatening assignation (Why do some cultures have to be so repressive. the car dropping off a tattered looking fglin (probably a whore)… wait… that fglin looks miserable, possibly injured, Trafficked? … No, this is my concern. I decide what is a concern or not. Jaxona moved to a better position and recorded the poor creature as another vehicle pulled up. The being flinched and then got inside. Jaxona smiled. She got some good shots of the vehicle and got a ping off of its transponder. Spy gear is so cool! Once she dealt with whatever plate of poo that Jon was serving up she was definitely going to be looking into that poor little fglin. No. It is her problem. She can do what she wants. She didnt care if “shit like that happens all the time”. She wasnt a jaded soul-dead old eel and wasnt inclined to let some poor soul suffer when she could do something about it. In fact, she decided that she just might start taking these little midnight strolls more often. A shadow moved inside the other shadows. She cocked her head in surprise. She had no idea Jon was such a sneaky bastard. Oh she knew he was “sneaky”, just not stealthy. She watched him for a few moments as he searched the park from his vantage point and scoffed. He was using a visor of some sort, the cheater. She watched as Jon pulled out a communicator and contacted her. Jaxona, not wanting to let him know she could spot him, stepped out into the open and pretended to look about. “Fancy meeting you here, ” Jon said as he approached. “Yeah, ” Jaxona laughed, “Somebody pulled me out of my nice pool in the middle of the night. Youre late by the way. ” “I was followed, I had to lose them, ” Jon replied. Jaxona suddenly noticed flecks of a dark liquid on his shirt. “Is that… blood? ” she asked in alarm. “Yeah, when I said ‘lose I meant ‘kill. Im done playing nice. ” “Eep! ” “Thats what he said, ” he chuckled flexing the fingers of his bionic arm. “Turns out they arent as invincible as they think they are. ” “… … Oh! … Right! … Do you, um, need us to clean it up? ” Jaxona asked. “Theres a dead body, one of Patricias ‘immortals, in a dark alley near 157th and Starlane Drive. If it could disappear that would be great. ” “Now how do I do that? ” Jaxona asked looking off into the distance for a second. “Ok! Hang on! ” she exclaimed. She contacted Federation Intelligence HQ and called for a cleanup crew. Xree~knExZ@ was awakened by his communicator and was instantly alert. KaRe~VxK%Lora, curled up next to him in a nest of cushions, made an unhappy noise as he got up. Wrapping a robe around himself he walked into the next room. “No, you were right to wake me… I did leave orders to contact me immediately concerning anything related to the Kalent Forum Liaison… She WHAT. When? … No. Do it. Send the crew immediately. I authorize it, top priority. Let the duty officer know Im on my way. I will be there shortly. ” Xree~knExZ@ terminated the call and returned to the bedchamber to get dressed. KaRe~VxK%Lora looked up at him as she turned on a lamp sitting on the floor next to their nest. “Sorry, KaRe”, Xree~knExZ@ said as he shrugged into a shoulder holster. “Somethings come up. ” “Its ok, darling, ” she replied with a smile. “Actually, this happens a lot less often than I thought it would. ” “Seniority has its perks, ” Xree~knExZ@ chuckled. “There arent too many people left who can wake me without fear… Including the twerp who just did. Im going to chew someones ears off, their fins actually, but you get the idea. ” “That, Kalent Forum person? ” “Yeah, cant go into details but the coffee bot is about to meet unhappy me, ” he growled as he put on his jacket. “Only you can anger me without consequence, ” he smiled. KaRe~VxK%Lora threw a pillow at him as she laughed. “Well, good hunting, my love, ” she smiled. “Thanks. I just wonder what is my prey is tonight, ” he replied as he left. As soon as he walked away his smile quickly faded replaced by a snarl. He grabbed his communicator angrily. “Jaxona, what the fuck is going on? … What do you mean you cant tell me. … Dont you fucking move. I will be there in-… What do you mean I cant come? You cant fucking tell me-… YOURE PULLING RANK. YOU DONT-… Wait… Repeat exactly what you just said word for fucking word … Ok, coffee-bot, Im holding position but when you get done with whatever it is you are doing I am going to want some fucking answers, maam. ” Xree~knExZ@ looked at his communicator in complete bewilderment for a few moments before shrugging and walking into the night. “Sorry about that, ” Jaxona said sheepishly. “The boss was about to storm his fluffy butt down here and I had to talk him down. ” “Didnt take him long, ” Jon smiled. “Yeah, ” Jaxona replied. “I guess he had a flag put on my tail. ” “I wonder why, ” Jon chuckled. “Ok, so I need to talk to you but first I need to know exactly who or what I am talking to. I bet you know what I am talking about. ” “Im sorry but I cant. ” she trailed off looking very odd. She sat silently for a few moments and then sighed a long bubbly sigh. “Alright. I guess I have no choice do I? ” “Nope, ” Jon replied. “If we are going to work together, which is absolutely necessary, I am going to need to know what the fuck I am dealing with. ” “And you wouldnt be here if there was any other option… any other option, ” Jaxona said quietly. “Look, I only want to break about a hundred different fishy laws once. Do you mind if another person joins us? You need to be talking to them anyway. ” “… Alright, ” Jon replied. “But if youre fucking with me I will fucking-” “Yeah, yeah, stow it, cockbite, ” Jaxona replied her eyes wide with surprise. “Sorry! I didnt mean that! I-” “Whatever, bitch, ” Jon said with a little smile, “Lets go. ”. Xree~knExZ@ sipped a cup of coffee while seated at a table in a back room of a starport diner that was one of the former directors favorites. He didnt even know it had a back room. Maybe this was why it was one of her favorites. He smiled as a waitress brought in everyones orders and a large insulated pot of coffee. A few minutes later another door opened and Jaxona and Jon Wintersmith walked in. Xree~knExZ@ raised an eyebrow as he rose and shook Jons hand. Of all the people that could have entered the room with the “coffee bot” he was perhaps the least expected. “Xree~knExZ. Federation Intelligence, ” he said introducing himself. “Jon Wintersmith, Terran Ambassador. ” Everyone took their seats and looked at Jaxona. “Well? ” Xree~knExZ@ asked. “Ok, ” Jaxona said. “What I am about to tell you is a Kalent secret and one that I am begging you both to keep. If this gets out I will probably be dragged back to our homeworld in disgrace and you both will lose all cooperation from the Kalent, something that we are probably going to need. If Jon is coming to us with anything other than a middle finger then things are likely pretty grim. ” “Grim is an understatement, ” Jon replied. “Ill keep your secret. ” “Likewise, ” Xree~knExZ@ said as he took another sip. “I see no profit in betraying you especially if what I am beginning to suspect is true. ” “So, ” Jaxona said calmly, “What do you know about something we call ‘The Great Ocean? ” “Its what you call retirement, right? ” Xree~knExZ@ asked. “I heard the late director mention it once or twice. ” “Retirement is a good term for it but rather incomplete, ” Jaxona replied. “As you know our development of age reversing tech did not go well. ” “I didnt know that, ” Jon said. “It almost destroyed our entire civilization, ” Jaxona said. “No good can come from it. ” “Based on whats happening thus far, Im inclined to agree. Please continue. ” “Well, youth was a bust but the thought of existing beyond what was our normal lifespan once tasted was difficult to turn away from entirely, ” Jaxona said as she reached for a small fried object. “Instead of preserving someones entire body, research into preserving the consciousness began and created what in time became what we call ‘The Great Ocean. As it now exists, the Great Ocean is a hybrid biological and quantum computer network, possibly the largest in the entire galaxy, where individual consciousnesses are entered and preserved indefinitely. ” Jaxona paused as she chewed the fried morsel. “The Great Ocean isnt ‘retirement as you know it. It is more like the kalent afterlife. Its a one way trip into a new state of being or at least its supposed to be. When a kalents biological life is drawing to a close either through age, incurable disease, or critical injury, the individuals brain is removed and installed into the Great Ocean where it can interface freely with the entirety of the network. As the biological brain continues to age and lose function the consciousness naturally transfers more and more of itself into the network until eventually it resides there completely. ” Jon and Xree~knExZ@ sat there silently as they processed what they were hearing. “The entire brain is removed and connected for a couple of reasons, ” Jaxona continued. “A real practical reason is that the individual brings along their own extra capacity. The system naturally grows as more individuals are added. What you would consider more traditional hardware can be added later. The other and perhaps the main reason why it is done this way is more philosophical. Many raised the question is uploading a copy of a being before it dies actually the being in question? By physically removing the brain and installing it there is no question. It is definitely the original consciousness. What happens next is a slow gradual transfer of it from the original ‘organic computer into the quantum network. It is generally accepted that this is still the ‘original. In this state a consciousness can exist for a very long time though most do eventually dissolve into a huge gestalt being we know as The Great Dreamer. ” “So you actually played God, ” Jon chuckled. “Built your own custom designed heaven. ” “Basically, yes, ” Jaxona replied. “That is exactly what we did. ” “So when Axlea said that she was entering The Great Ocean, ” Xree~knExZ@ said in an uncomfortable tone, “she wasnt talking about retirement. She was talking about suicide. She was going to kill herself. ” “That is a judgement that is entirely dependent upon ones cultural values, ” Jaxona said. “In some respects, yes. She was going to surrender her physical body but her brain would continue to live for awhile as she transitioned. ” “This is abhorrent, ” Xree~knExZ@ shuddered. “All those beings trapped in undeath, their souls lost forever. I cant believe that is what Axlea intended for herself. ” “I wouldnt go quite that far, ” Jon said as he ate a bacon-like item, “but it is definitely a bit on the creepy side. ” “This is one reason that we dont speak of it, ” Jaxona said as she raised herself out of her globe and sipped some warm tea. “There are so many different cultures in the Federation. Some would react even more strongly than you did, Xree~knExZ. ” “So how many individuals are there in this Great Ocean, ” Jon asked. “Almost every single kalent that has ever been born for a very very long time, ” Jaxona replied. “Most of them eventually join The Great Dreamer sooner or later though. ” “When you say a long time, ” Jon asked, “how long? ” “Thats a secret that Im going to have to keep, ” Jaxona replied. “Im putting myself in the fryer basket enough as it is. ” “This is just wrong, so very wrong, ” Xree~knExZ@ muttered. “Some kalent agree with you and choose not to join The Great Ocean, ” Jaxona said, “The vast majority consider that a tragedy though. All those experiences and all that knowledge just lost forever. ” She shook her head sadly. “That does bring up one of the incredible advantages of The Great Ocean. All of the experiences, knowledge, and ability of every single kalent who has entered it are preserved. Imagine if the greatest minds of your entire civilization could be called upon at any time. Any question, any problem, any crisis that arises you have not only all of the kalent currently alive but every single kalent that has existed since the inception of The Great Ocean. Think of it. The greatest scientific minds of countless generations not only still exist but can collaborate both with each other and the living. In a disease outbreak, the greatest physicians in history are on call. In war, the greatest leaders of all time stand ready. Art, music, literature… anything you can imagine benefits from the collective experience and talents of the ages. And then there is the magnificence of the The Great Dreamer. Its knowledge is impossibly vast, its wisdom is beyond imagining. Many kalent believe that The Great Ocean is our greatest achievement. ” Jaxona paused and chuckled. “Both of your cultures believe strongly in serving your people to your dying breath. For us, thats just the beginning. Death does not relieve a kalent of their duty. For us, duty to the kalent is eternal. ” “It sounds like you have condemned yourselves to a hell of your own making, ” Xree~knExZ@ replied. “What you describe is hell. ” “I dont know, ” Jon said thoughtfully. “Its definitely weird but hell? I dont know. Imagine if Newton, Einstein, Hawking, and all the rest could still be sitting around exchanging ideas with each other and everyone else. Shit. ” “Exactly, ” Jaxona replied. “Of course some of the older ones might not still be around as a discrete entity. They may now be part of The Great Dreamer but The Great Dreamers knowledge and wisdom are there for the asking. ” “As fascinating as all of this is, ” Jon said as he refilled his coffee. “I assume you are telling us about this big secret for a reason. Something to do with our favorite eel perhaps? ” “Yes, ” Jaxona replied. “Normally entering The Great Ocean is a one way trip. The physical brain is removed and the body recycled. ” “Recycled? ” Xree~knExZ@ asked raising his eyebrow. “If you dont like The Great Ocean you really wont like the way we ‘inter our dead. Anyway, the brain is removed and installed. However, that isnt the only way we can extract a consciousness. Sometimes, usually due to an accident, the brain is too damaged to transfer intact. In those cases we have a way to download what remains. Quite often a great deal can be extracted from even the worst cases. Director Axlea received special permission to do just that. Using that digital extraction technique she created a copy of herself and uploaded it into The Great Ocean while she was still alive. This is… distasteful… to us. Creating a copy like that poses a lot of problems, both philosophical and legal, and brings forth images from yet another unpleasant chapter in our history. You can imagine how something like that could be abused. ” “Id rather not, ” Xree~knExZ@ replied. “Smart move, ” Jaxona said, “It was pretty messed up. However, it is now considered more of a threat to the person copied than to anyone else so it was more akin to the former director wishing to mutilate herself than commit any dark deed so it was reluctantly allowed. ” “Why would she do that? ” Xree~knExZ@ asked in horror. “You might not know this, ” Jaxona replied, “but the Republic War really affected the former director. She, quite unfairly in my opinion, held herself directly responsible for all those deaths because she failed to stop it. It messed her up inside. ” “But there was no way she could have stopped it. She tried. They wouldnt listen, ” Xree~knExZ@ said emphatically. “There was no legitimate way she could have stopped it. However, she felt that there was much she could have done if only, to borrow a concept from our foe, she had enough ‘resolve. When her old enemy resurfaced and was clearly putting a plan into motion she promised herself that she would do whatever it took to stop her. Making a copy of herself, despite the issues that would cause, was nothing to her. ” “What issues? ” Jon asked. “The biggest one would be when she entered The Great Ocean herself. Two copies of the same person can cause… problems. Interactions between the two identities can be problematic but the biggest problem that she would face would be from the other residents of The Great Ocean or even the living population. Multiple copies are not accepted by our culture. It is highly likely that there would be demands that one or even both of the Axlea consciousnesses be deleted. She was risking her very existence. ” “But, why? ” Xree~knExZ@ asked. “To access the resources of The Great Ocean directly. She wouldnt be limited by a terminal. She could explore the entirety of The Ocean instantly and intimately. It was risky in the extreme but she was also directly communing with The Great Dreamer to access that great mind and bring it to bear on the situation. Another reason was that she felt at a real disadvantage when facing Patricia. Her foe had regained her youth and she was keenly feeling the effects of her aging mind. The copy would be instantly as sharp as Axlea was in her prime. Also, by using the same neural interface tech the copy and the original could commune, sharing resources and essentially becoming one single larger mind when they were doing so. This is breaking so many conventions, guidelines, customs, and morals it isnt even funny and invited condemnation and rage from the kalent community should it have been found out but she did it. ” “If it was so much against the rules how did she manage it? ” Jon asked. “Short answer, it was Director Axlea, ” Jaxona chuckled. “Anyway, the copy was actively working in The Great Ocean when the director, the real director, was assassinated. ” “Is this madness what the director was referring to when she said that she was ‘sufficiently protected? ” Xree~knExZ@ asked with distaste. “No, ” Jaxona replied. “She was talking about the illicit kalent tech shields she had in her bot. That thing could generate, for a few seconds, the shield strength of a heavy fighter. Whatever hit her globe would have punched a hole in a Starlancer, something she definitely wasnt expecting! Didnt you wonder why it was a team kalent techs that recovered her bot? ” “So youre a copy? ” Jon asked. “Oh no! Absolutely not! ” Jaxona exclaimed. “Downloading copies and overwriting minds is absolutely forbidden! Even now, no matter how badly Axlea pushed for it, it wasnt going to happen. A copy of a copy isnt ever going to happen again and even under the current circumstances downloading her consciousness back into the ‘real world was not an option. Once again, there is a reason stemming from yet another historical incident. The kalent would riot if that happened. She would be hunted down and there is nothing anyone could do to stop it. ” “So what did happen because something sure as hell did. ” “The next best thing, ” Jaxona replied. “Axlea offered to allow herself to be broken down and just her memories and instincts extracted. ” Jaxona looked at them grimly. “She asked that she be destroyed and the usable portions loaded into a volunteer. They went through the records and found me. Im ‘special, ” she said with a bubbly scoff, “By kalent standards Im a ‘genius and it was believed that I would be able to accommodate all of ‘her and not only be able to maintain my identity but fully utilize what I would be given. When Axlea found me she was overjoyed. She could dissolve herself and load all of her memories and instincts into someone ‘smarter than she was and stay in the fight. She jumped at the chance. So, once I agreed to this madness what was left of her was loaded in. ” Xree~knExZ@ lept up and backed away from the table in horror. “So she killed herself and parts of her ‘corpse are in your head? ” “By your cultures perception, yes, ” Jaxona sighed sadly. “By ours as well, even though none of her actual tissue is involved. ” “And you agreed to this? ” Xree~knExZ@ demanded angrily. “What is wrong with you? ” “The situation required it, ” Jaxona replied calmly, “Im also a bit ‘strange by our standards. As blasphemous as the concept was the thought of having all of that knowledge and experience was just too tempting to pass up. My initial reasons might have been selfish but now that I have her memories I know I made the right decision. The Federation, the kalent included, are in real peril. Sacrifices had to be made. ” “So what happened to the rest of her? ” Jon asked. “She probably now sleeps within The Great Dreamer or has dissolved completely, ” Jaxona replied. “Without memories and the drives that come from them there would be little left to hold her together. I felt her briefly. She was free of all of the fear, horror, evil deeds, and all the rest. She was… innocent… and quite happy. Im not sure how long she will last but she was finally free. Considering all of the terrible things she dealt with I think it was a fitting end. ” Xree~knExZ@ just glared at her. “Youre unnatural, a monster, ” he hissed. “By the standards of both your culture and mine you are absolutely correct, ” Jaxona replied. “but Im a very useful one. I have all of Axleas memories and instincts and the full backing of the Kalent Forum with access to all the resources thereof. Im sure Im not the only ‘monster you work with am I? ” She turned to Jon. “So, have your questions been answered sufficiently? Can we continue? ” “I now have a whole lot of other ones but I bet you wont answer them, ” Jon replied sipping his coffee. “I know enough. Yeah I am ready to talk. ” He turned to Xree~knExZ. “Its a good thing you are already horrified because boy do I have some shit to tell you guys. ” After he finished everyone sat in silence for a few moments. “Well, and Im speaking for all of the voices in my head when I say this. wow, ” Jaxona said at last. Xree~knExZ@ just made an angry hiss and then said, “If it wouldnt be exactly what she wanted I would be screaming for war right about now. ” “No, ” Jaxona said looking off into space, “There has to be another way. We cant… No. I cant think of anything better right now… No! I cant suggest that! Its wrong! ” “Is the ghost of our favorite bitch whispering in your ear? ” Jon asked. “Go ahead and share. Lets do some Terran style brainstorming. Just say what you are thinking. There are no bad ideas. ” “I disagree, ” Jaxona said grimly. “Ok. What comes to mind is this. We dont cure it. ” “What. ” Xree~knExZ@ exclaimed. “We just let all those people die? ” “Exactly, ” Jaxona replied in an icy tone. “We institute disaster level disease control protocols immediately. Institute a complete travel ban on all humans. Close our borders including aid from both the Republic and the Empire under the pretext of preventing the spread of the plague. All infected are quarantined. No research on a cure. If it is as deadly and virulent as we are being led to believe then it should burn itself out eventually. No cure means no fix for our friends. No fix for our friends means that we are rid of them in a few years at most. Easy peasy. ” “Now I know that Director Axlea is in there, ” Xree~knExZ@ said grimly. “I hear her in every word you just said. ” “I knew you were a bitch, ” Jon said grimly, “but damn, I had no idea. ” “Its horrible! ” Jaxona exclaimed in her normal voice. “There has to be a better way! I dont care! Its… just one species and not a very numerous one at that… The loss of life will be much less than if she succeeds. Besides, its a population that has been nothing but trouble from day one. The Federation will be better off without… NO! … NO! You cant say that! They are people. ” Jon and Xree~knExZ@ just looked at each other silently as Jaxona argued with herself. “I agree that it is a terrible thing to do but right now for now it is a good move, ” Xree~knExZ@ said eventually. “We can direct our research not towards a cure but towards a vaccine. It is somewhat less evil and will be easier to sell than doing absolutely nothing. I dont see total inaction working even if we institute disaster protocols and martial law. We would risk rebellion. ” “Even a vaccine could be helpful to her, ” Jaxona replied. “No! A vaccine could work and it wouldnt… ugh… I think I just might know a little more about this than you do… My major has absolutely nothing to do with this, you bitch! I learned more in my academy years than you ever did you… you… mainstreamer! Everybody knows what sort of kalent goes into government service! ” Jaxona said as she thrashed back and forth in her globe. “Everything ok in there? ” Jon chuckled. “Oh we are just fine! ” Jaxona snapped. “Now stop screaming in my head or I will start taking those pills! … Yeah, you dont like that do you? You made your point. I communicated it. Now please shut the fuck up! ” Jaxona sighed and looked up, “Sorry about that. Part of me is having a conniption! ” “Another huge problem we have is that all of this is coming from one of her own people and a Bloodlord at that, ” Xree~knExZ@ said thoughtfully. “We are going to have a hard time doing anything before the bodies start to fall considering the credibility of the source, both the Bloodlord and you, Jon. I believe you but a lot of people wont. ” Xree~knExZ@ clicked his tongue against the roof of his mouth for a few seconds. “Any chance some of my people can interrogate this Crimson person? ” Jon nodded. “Provided that there are Terran representatives present at all times and you keep the drugs and inductors at home. She is cooperating. We dont want to change that. ” “Deal, ” Xree~knExZ@ replied. “Now I just have to figure out how to sell all of this to the new director. This morning is gonna suck! ” “Of course, blocking the cure here in the Federation is only going to slow her down, not stop her, Jon, ” Jaxona said quietly. “If she cant get the ball rolling here-” “She will release it in the Republic itself, ” Jon said completing her sentence. “I already know how to stop that. ” “How? ” Xree~knExZ@ asked. “I kill her, ” Jon replied. “She dies and the whole problem just goes away. I made that decision before Crimson stopped talking. ” “Then why even get us involved? ” “Because a whole lot of people are going to die if you dont do something right fucking now. ” “You are doing this to save… porkies? ” “Who knows, ” Jon replied as he shrugged. “Maybe that. Maybe I fucked up and actually became an ambassador somewhere along the line and Im trying to stop a war that doesnt need to happen. Maybe Im hedging my bets in case I fail. I dont fucking know. Im just playing this by ear at this point. All I know is that I felt you guys needed to get a heads up so maybe you can at least contain the damage and that I need to frag a certain bitch, literally. Lets see her kung-fu dodge what Im going to bring into her office. ” “Makes sense, ” Jaxona said. “But whether you succeed or fail you will be out of the game. Who will we deal with once youre gone? ” “Toby will make the introductions, ” Jon replied. “Now if you will excuse me, I need to write the woman that I love a good-bye letter. ”.
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